well happy fall to you!!!

hope your afternoon has been lovely as ever. mine sure was. how could it not be when the wind was blowing so beautifully and making the golden leaves dance around like at a ball ( :D ) it was a bit sad though. because me and my friend from my apartments walked to target to buy a kite, because i figured it was a perfect day for that, and alas, they did not have any whatsoever. so i bought brownie mix and a christmas penguin plate and we made brownies ( for a surprise for maggie and my mom when they get home) and placed some cut up strawberries on tope, mmmhhmm they are delish

and yesterday yesterday (a.k.a sunday) was suchhhhhh a marvelous day. we played hookie from church and went to downtown and had a perfect day. well me and mom did. maggie was volunteering at this one thing. but me and mom walked about 7 -9 blocks to a bakery called the bread shop and had some pastery thing and coffee, hot cocoa for me. and then i bought the most amazing bread ever.... its called facoshia or something like that and it has cheese, onion and tomatoe on top of it. oh my, it tasted fabulous. kinda like pizza my mama said. and it was semi windy and the leaves were falling over head as we walked to the crocker art museum (cuz its free on sundays, yiyaa) and it was just so great. dont you love those kind of days.

so i just wanted to remember that memory whenever i read this
but now i gotta go.
but hopefully ill write soon
p.s im working on a short story right now and im really excited

tomorrow…

tomorrow, ill love you tomorrow. your only a day awayyyyyyyy.

:D lets hope that the wedding i desperatly dont want to go to goes o.k! and i get all my homework finished.

i had some thai food today from my favorite little restuarant. its was deelish! and cheep cheep

well....

here we are again. friday. (finally seems overrated here, or just overused)
hello friday and welcome. yes sirreee

well school wasnt that bad, my leadership for TOK wasnt as crazy as i thought it would be. i lived, so that counts for something. and i didnt pee myself or cry.
hehe i cant even imagine that scene. alrighty then moving on

but something crazy did happen when me and mom were driving back (maggie stayed at school for a volleyball thing). so were driving along and then we stop becuase the light is red. but the lane next to us was the turning lane and the light was green and before i know it this guy on a bike (with a bag of cans) drives past us (becuase we are stopped mind you) and he doesnt see the car by us driving, and vice versa, and he just slames into the window. and so i see these cans fly up and this guy, well i only see his leg, and no joke like after 10 seconds he just starts moving and gets up. dude, he wasnt hurt AT ALL. it was so amazing, well not amazing, but more like interesting to witness. and we drove away but then turned back just in case he needed some witnesses.
its crazy how dented in the window was but how unhurt the guy was.

so thats all i wanted share, ooo and that i feel really pretty today and extra special. maybe its just friday. hehe
-angei

well howdy..

im not actally a country girl. even though i was born in Nebraska.
oh how i miss the fall and wintery season there.

i wish i could just write and write all day and night, and even then i know that i wouldnt get every ounce of word out of my system, it would still be overflowing

life. in a nutshell (although it might get a bit squishy in there, and probably dark...)
my mom just got some teeth done by this really nice armanian dentist(who look really young, but really istn :D_
she did this becuase she had the worst teeth pains. especially in one tooth which was seriously killing her. she said "i wish i could just pull it out" and she was dead serious. but she didnt in the end. so she used a lot of money for her teeth, but that was necessary.

and maggie(sister) need braces now, since we've been waiting for like 2 years already to get them on her. but we dont have that kind of money at the moment.

reason 1:
moms going to college full time and isnt working becuase of that
reason 2:
mom let a "friend" borrow $1000, and now the friend is practically ignoring her and it doesnt seem shes intending to give it back to her. sad sad.
my moms willing to let her give it back in monthly instalments, but the lady istn replying to my moms notes shes left at her apartment.
i just dont understand.
but i think my moms learned her lessons or lending out large chunks of money

money always seems like a problem. and i try not to envy people who have it, but its hard you know. let me tell ya, its hard.
because it seems they dont appreciate it....

i had a lovely dream last night. obvioustly i dont remember it all clearly cuz dreams tend to slip out as softly as they slip in my head.

situation :
it was my cousin leras birthday and kyle from work was baking her a cake and we were going to go and surprise her or something... with a whole bunch of balloons

so.. what i remember:
im facing this old house (that ive never seen before) and kyle says i can use his car to take a whole whole whole (like a lot) bunch of balloons to olesya. and i walk down the steps and the balloons lift me up and i kinda bounce up and down the street with the balloons. and i cant find his car for some reason. i dont realize that some of the balloons are popping and its getting cold outside.
so i go back to the house, and i look up and there are only 2 green balloons left, and when i walk into the door the last 2 just pop. becuase it was cold outside and really warm inside.
and i look into the kitchen, (and i think) that he is taking a cake out all happy and such. and i show him all the strings. and i dont remember what happens next...
but i dont think he got mad, becuase he had the yummy cake as a present, so its o.k if we didnt have any balloons.

*sigh* it was a wonderful dream because i really felt myself going up into the air with a whole bouquet of balloons in my arms!!! and i was actually frightened of not getting back down

i wish my dad would really know how much i miss him. just because i dont call or email, it doesnt mean im too busy with something else. i dont know how to explain it. yes, on some days i purposly dont want to talk to him, hate it that i cant see him and tell him how much i want to just spend one day with him. how at random moments of the day, i simply think of him. i could never hate him, never.
i just wish he new the extent of my forgiveness


yup yup, yikes tomorrow me and callie are leading our first TOK seminar as leaders. i truly hope my heart becomes peaceful when i get up there and i put on a big smile and give it my best shot.
oooo i hope i do

and then i work 5 30 till 10 30 tomorrow. and when i get home im just crashing and sleeping.
i fear im growing old with hints of bags under my eyes from lack of sleep. its sorts funny how nothing can last here on earth, except souls that is...

time to finish up other stuff,
angei

well look at the time...

already 11:07, but i couldnt help myself. it just had to be done.

becuase words need to flow from my soul.

and maybe their insignificant to everybody else in the world but me,

but thats o.k

lifes a bit crazy, with so much stuff going on, well at least it seems like it.

maybe it will stop soon, maybe it will never die down.

random i know but i was thinking of euthanasia (allowing a doctor to kill you without pain, if you are in horrible, and unstopable pain)

and honestly if something were to happen to me, after 2 or 3 years on life support if i was still an avocado just lying there not doing anything or bringing anyone benefit. just let me go.

no hard feelings.

i went to muir woods, and they were gorgious and big and beautiful. but there were too many people there for my liking. i like the nature though, a lot, and when i have my own car i will definetly just go out to places like that and read, write, draw, think and sing.

becuase the sould needs days like that to rejuvinate and come closer to God.

i like my room and table so much. they are so comfortable and so ... well me. im so grateful i have a roof over my head and food on the table and other things that i dont even need.

what a wonderful wonderful oppurtunity i have to succeed and i will.

no matter what i have to do or how long it may take i will succeed and (if God leads me, to be a medical missionary, then so be it)

alrite, must be off to bed now

oooh and i bought a new book at the thrift store. i forgot what its called, but its great.!:D

lets see..

today is thursday. glorious thursday.
school gets out at 1 35 instead of 2 56
and thats always a plus.
and its one step closer to friday. meaning the weekend once again.
my saturday is going to be full.
sacstate visit in the morning
work for 3 hours and then..
babysitting for the evening. macy, gracie, tebin and darrin whom i love :D

today at the store a guy started talking to me about maybe recognizing someone but not knowing where from and i told him about the guy from costco.
anywho.. at the end when i was leaving he said something like "bye, have a good evening... (pause).. stay beautiful"

interesting eh? '
and i started thinking about those words "stay beautiful"
noone can stay beautiful. right?
and what is beautiful anyways

beautiful, beautiful its the aim of so many people. years and money wasnted on gaining back years
face it people, your going to grow old

im going to grow old, so i better live each day to its fullest
speaking of fullest, im going to dennys to get a milkshake with my friend liz...

-angei