december 15th to be exact. meaning only 10 days till christmas. its not as exciting for some reason. well actually i know why. no christmas tree decorations or tree since were going to nebraska. and we decided not to waste money on a tree and stuff. thats okay with me. but still. christmas in my childhood just seemed so much more. more merrier and the air was filled with something. other then snow i mean. something magical. and thats definetly not here this year. i think im just homesick. well actually not for nebraska, but for my dad and snow. i need those two and im glad that in less then 9 days i will get to embrace both. a year is a long long time. ya, its short on some levels. but 356 of not seeing someone, laughing and crying with them. of no hugs or pats on the back. of not talking for more then a month at a time. well, you begin to be afraid of forgetting them, if you dont see them real soon. with that said, first semester of senior year is almost done. almost, almost. thats what keeps me going. that and the hope that second semester will fly on by faster then first. and then, well, i start on the path to shaping my future.
i could have and can be so many things. i could be anything, anything at all. i just wish i had more time to put my potential into different things. i want to save the world. kill world hunger and wipe the tears from every face. but i cant do all that. i would be lying if i said i could. i can make a little diffence though. at least i can do that.
i want to adopt and work as a doctor overseas and help in prisons and volunteer in homeless shelters and hug the world. but my arms may not be big enough for everything. ill just have to wait and see
only time will tell. only time will tell all.
yours always.
