this moment

strung together with wet tears
shed for your flyaway soul
i didnt know you
and now your stuck somewhere between eternity and here
flooding my mind with laughter unknown
"let me go"
let me run with God above
and swim through everything i've ever known
you will always be with me
in my smile
in my sighs
somehow your warmth is everlasting to me
that twinkle in your eye
is frozen in the midnight sky
i'll close these eyes of mine
and trip to the future
where earth is far below
and im way up there
hearing you again...

i simply want...

a car.
a nice durable cute vehicle that can transport my sister and I to...
lets say
yosemite for example
or reno
or the boardwalk
or san fransisco
or the mountains
or nevada
or oregon
or simply to the grocery store near by...
is this too much to ask
too much to want in my heart?

to be alone with you

here's what i'm saying.
the way things play out
structured and sound.
i cant help but grin within
at the thought of developing
feelings guaranteed to evolve.
my heart skips a beat
sunbeams falling
soft and slow
bring warm promises of
a continued afterglow
lets keep my mind occupied
seasonal fluctuation.

where has all the time gone?

today, as i was riding my navy blue beach cruiser back home, a lady told me that
"YOU LOOK LIKE YOUR IN A MOVIE, or from a movie"

and it made me
SMILE!!

IM making pasta with pistachios and parmesian cheese! complete with some mint chip ice cream afterwards
how yummy!

im happy.

i want money not to be an issue.
im excited that ceramics has started up again, what to make?????

winter break has///

ARRIVED. its here. one WHOLE month off.
what am i going to do??
- practice driving so that i can get my license
-hopefully make a quilt
-sleep
-pain and write
-work
-beee happyyyyyyyy in the rain

IM GOING TO SEATTLE FOR A WEEK!!!! ahhhh im sooo excited and ready to go to this city i love with all my heart. ahhh its going to be uber amazing. just being in its presents will be soo worth it :)


sometimes happiness is so fragile. so what are we going to do about it?
live. forget that its fragile. live like it isn't


...................bye

its hard

to live in this day and age without the internet D:
even a week without it is hard

what is the world turning into?
it should be this hard but it is


AND
why havent you written back to me.
i feel like im waiting for something thats never going to come.
like a silly girl. thats waiting.
i cant turn into one or those people. who wait for happiness, for someone else.
one day in november everything flips around. and im part of this process.
how do i let my mind go. let you leave.
waiting....

my fingers are chilly. my stomach hurts but
i should be going ice skating later on, so its all good. for the moment at least..

isnt it strange...

how something can change in a split second in time.
how life can become simple or extremely complicated in one weekend.
how we keep living and living, hopeing for change, but then when it comes, become afraid/

ARENT WE ODD CREATURES roaming the earth...